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The Calculated Risk.

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 12:23:15 GMT

Achievements for the Year
Nil

Mistakes for the year
Indefinite.

Number of Times I had to pick myself up
Countless

My year?
Pretty decent.

At the end of the day,it's not about how many mistakes you've made,or how many tears you've shed.Neither is it the number of friends you've made.It is about how many times you've fell,and manage to get back up again,to know that this is an never ending cycle of life.

Cheerio.

p.s. I think everything in this post is irrelevant to everything in it.hahaha

& I dreamt I wrote a Story of You.

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 08:25:15 GMT

Here's another filler.Crap,too many fillers as it is.Finals in a week and a half.Flights in 3 hours.Camera is coming back this week.

Taiwan

Cheerio

A Toast

Fri, 16 Oct 2009 11:58:11 GMT

Dear Jeremy/Deborah & Deborah/Jeremy (just in case you guys argue at whose name should come first.)

First and foremost,I would like to congratulate the both of you two on your 4th anniversary,and by 4 i mean by years and not months. 4 years = 48 months = 192 weeks =1344 days. By means,not an easy accomplishment.And also not forgetting Happy Birthday Jeremy,my gay twin brother.(HE DOESNT HAVE GAY ISSUES OKAY!)

We been friends for more than 5 years now,and I've seen the both of you through the ups and downs of life,period.The both of you,are better halfs of each other,complimenting one another.What you guys have is by far,the most amazing thing I have witness.I has but been a pleasure and honor to watch to both of you grow together spiritually as one.

I am already lost for words.So before I end,I wish the both of you many blessed years full of love ,joy and continue growing together as one.May the stars and heavens watch over you both.

Cheerio.

p.s. Jeremy,this is your birthday & anniversary post. =P

& They told Me to do the Right Thing.

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 08:23:54 GMT

...I honestly don't know if what i'm doing anymore is right.

I didn't know what to say.I usually had everything sorted out.In the end all I could tell you was I didn't know.I don't know what I want and I didn't know what to do anymore.I blame you for forcing me out that night,I was in no conscious state,but I came anyway,and for that,I blame myself.

I see you looking at me,you say you'll be alright.It was the Hug Goodbye,time would tell.I see you,breaking down inside.I,look fine maybe,perhaps,but inside I'm dying.You didn't heed my warning,you didn't want to believe me.I thought I could make it right,but I am messed up,yes complicated maybe.I think too much,true.You knew this,you had me figured out all this while.

I sit here still wondering,if ever did I do the right thing?But honestly,I do not know what I want anymore.Maybe one day,I pray,you'd understand why.
And now,it's time for me to pick up the pieces,do the right thing,and move on from where I left off.

Cheerio. ;)

p.s.Story oh story,i think i've written like 3000 words.

2 years,5 months,2 weeks,3 days,7 hours and 30 minutes...

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 09:52:16 GMT

... before i realised what an idiot I am.

Rule 2 : Never start throwing stuff over the "wall" in big chucks.

I wondered to myself whether I had done to right thing or not.I had told you I was complicated,but you insisted that I wasn't.I told you I didn't like talking about myself but I did anyway.I wondered if by telling you about myself,it would change anything.I told you the truth.I told you my piece of mind.I told you honestly the dangers and risk imposed and it wasn't worth taking.There was a moment of silence and I told you we should leave.I hugged you and you hugged back tighter than ever. "Like you said 'This'll lead to nowhere.' ".I stood there watching you disappear into the darkness that consumed you.

Till next time.

Cheerio.

p.s.Trials are next week.FML.

The least of things.

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 06:12:35 GMT

college has been taking up too much of my time =S
So this will have to do for now.Sorry mates
___________________________________________
I Believe...
That just because two people argue,
it doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue,
it doesn't mean they do love each other..

I Believe...
That we don't have to change friends if
we understand that friends change.

I Believe...
That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I Believe...
That true friendship continues to grow, even over
the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I Believe....
That you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

I Believe...
That it's taking me a long time
to become the person I want to be.

I Believe...
That you should always leave loved ones with
loving words.. It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe...
That you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I Believe...
That we are responsible for what
we do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe...
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe....
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done
when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe....
That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I Believe...
That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I Believe...
That sometimes the people you expect to kick you
when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe...
That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I Believe....
That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I Believe...
That it isn't always enough, to be forgiven by others..
sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe...
That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I Believe...
That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,
but, we are responsible for who we become.

I Believe....
That you shouldn't be so eager to find
out a secret. It could change your life Forever.

I Believe...
Two people can look at the exact same
thing and see something totally different.

I Believe....
That your life can be changed in a matter of
hours by people who don't even know you.

I Believe...
That even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.

I Believe....
That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

'The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;
they just make the most of everything.

Cheerio.

p.s. Hope your day was better than mine.

3 in the Morning.

Fri, 25 Sep 2009 11:17:07 GMT

Rule 1 : Stay Away and nobody gets hurt.

"i hate you",the letters appear one by one across the black screen like clockwork.I don't know what to make of this,it's 3 in the morning and i'm still rushing a business proposal thats due later for work.
"We shouldn't talk to each other anymore"
"And I mean it".All the words fit together perfectly like puzzle pieces put together for the first time.I was hoping there was no more to come,it was hurting as much as it could ever be.
"We can still text each other",more words had appeared on the screen in front of me.
What could I say?I couldn't argue with you,I wouldn't,it was already lost without a fight.
"okay." i typed out reluctantly.
"bye",the last words i would ever see.
*User is currently offline*
I wish it didn't have to come to this,but it did.I could have very well lied,but i chose not to.
"So much for thinking ahead "i thought to myself.
The very rule I had tried very hard to uphold was a lost cause.The very rule meant to protect everyone else was broken.I sat there,wondering this rule that had never really seemed to work.Perhaps I should have just stuck to the fort I had well fortified instead of lowering the bridge just a little bit.
I would have told you so much more,but my conscious told me better.You already had someone else.

Till next time.

Cheerio.

p.s. This has nothing to do with anything.haha.

The Thought Of being Realistic.

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 08:15:18 GMT

Love

Love knows no hate

Love knows no pain

Love knows no jealously

Love is Pure

Love Is Just

Love makes the world go round

Love eats us away,slowly buy surely

Lingering,hungry it feeds.

Love creates

Love destroys.

Yet,Love is great.

Love,

Love makes the whole world go.

Till next time.

Cheerio.

p.s. I wrote it in 5 minutes.Was on the KTM when the Idea came along.

The Thought Of being Realistic.

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 08:09:29 GMT

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